nothing seems perfect

2 december 2009

2009-12-02T14:28:00.003+08:00

Finally my papers ended yesterday.
try all my best in the paper already, hope can get a B ???
Yesterday headed to yishun seoul garden wif my class IOE to eat there.
taken alots of picture but kind of lazy to upload cus IT DAM LOT..
haha.. beside taking alot of picture we also hug each other.
i hate this type of scenery la, my gosh..

i put down the stone in my heart which you hurt me dam deep.
i once took you as my bff but not now.
those scolding of vulgarities i hf enough from you just that i don wish to quarrel wif you anything.
stop acting like you know me well like that ?
i admit i don know you well that why we will becum like this.
hating a person need alots of energy, i rather save my energy and be friend wif you back.
hope you know what you are kindly doing ok!

12 december 2009

2009-11-12T18:05:00.004+08:00

think i very long didint update le ba.
look like dead le lo.. haha.
it not i dun wanna to talk to you.
to much things happen and i dunoe how to say.
nature take place ba.
and i needed time to heal up all things.:))
today went to tampines to shop wif lee yen, huiling,kailing, peiling, jieling and of course me la!haha...
went there shop around after tat lee yen friend come le then me and jieling went to take bus together. gonna go le..

18 september 2009

2009-09-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

Forgive and forget:))

15 september 2009

2009-09-15T18:47:00.000+08:00

what you are to me?
it enough la hor:(
treating you so good is not worth to me la:(
it my loss..
badmouth me all the way:( hell man. feel like really slappin hard on your face.
but i guess i not that violet.. haha:))
kor, i know by telling you all this is just useless:(
you might be thinking that i am wornd and bad.
just hope that you will realise it one day ba:)
it like thousands of knife poking into me, bleeding profusely.

12 September 2009

2009-09-12T16:41:00.002+08:00

i seriously have enough le:(
stop threatening me this way:(
don need me when you want me, threw me away when you don need.
stop it la hor:(
i hate you:(

12 September 2009

2009-09-12T16:41:00.001+08:00

11 september 2009

2009-09-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

today went out with baby, ah wei and eileen:)
though it like around 2 hour that i spent with them, but seriously i am much happy than with my family.
why my parents still so stubborn and unhappy?
i just having a malaysia boyfriend?
is that any wrong with that?
you guys wanna to push me a corner that i hardly breath is it?
anything also cant.
cant go out late at night, 9 plus is it late?
do things that you guys keep on nagging..
alots of pressure. do thing that make you guys so angry and keep on scolding me for what?
i admire of those parents that can be so understanding at times:))
anyone want to adopt me?
my mummy forcing me to make a choice in between baby and family.
i really really don wan to think that:(
please i really suffocated in pain..
until i can hardly breathe..
baby,
sometimes i feel that i not important to you.
i just feel like moving out and stay alone.
think i am just living in my own world.
which no one can really understand me:(
when i truly wanna find someone, everyone say not free.
quite sad to hear that lo:(

10 September 2009

2009-09-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

Today exam finish at 11am..
sad case for my POA:( gonna study real hard for my BEO le..
haha:))
jake still ask me the POA exam paper was easy?
i reply him" er alright lo" but actually i find it hard..
i lied to him.. haha:)) or else he will be laughing at me lo..
after exam headed to Plaza Sing with cliques to eat just asia..
after eating went down to plaza sing to shop around..
lee yen and huiling bought top from cotton on while the rest keep on looking and trying.
no money is like that de ma? only can temp ourselves...
walk around until 3 plus went home..
because i fallen asleep soon.

i dont know whether you are lying to us not?
somehow i got a feeling that you are, but just that i don want to say out ba le.
lf you are really lying to us, why you are lying to us?
can we know?
what for you lie? it like we wont laugh at you or look down on you ma?
right?
your problems make us feel so much doubts.
until we feel so tired le.
lies and lies again?
even lf we ask you you still like that...
ah ya, don know what to say to you..
sianx le.
bye:)

7 August 2009

2009-09-07T09:29:00.000+08:00

thanks angeline darling uh for helping me my blog.
lols. baby went back to malaysia then i went over to my aunt house to stay overnight.
yesterday cousin treat us to sakura to eat buffet. total amt is $200 plus.
can you believe it? so expensive.
but then the food there are fabulous.
my nephew and niece went over there to eat fruits and ice cream:)
i don know why nowdays i keep on sleeping so early.
think i am really tired ba?
everyone was like asking me why i sleep so early nowsdays?
i also don know..
gonna prepare my thing for school le..
bye:)

1 september 2009 tuesday

2009-09-01T09:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday receive bill, it hit until 300 plus.
i think i accidentally press until gprs. suck man..
brother ask whether i need money not. i need it actually, but still i cant depend on you guys ba?
sometimes i might be wondering why i choose this path?
making myself suffocated and tiring..
talk on the phone till one plus till i hung call..
i no longer a little girl mummy and daddy think..
last time, anything that i do make you guys angry.
i will immediately stop the act.. but right now. i just hope you guys will understand me..
i not running out from the house or what..
maybe what he do now, may not be what you guys want..
but still give him some time?
i really admire of those parents that is so open until like see their daughters/sons stead..
my parents actually dote on him alot.
perhaps like what his brother told me, his bad habits had already been find out
which is keep on drinking beer..
mum,
i know you hate him drinking beer but he already cut down.
but sad to say you still don believe.
you did ask him to continue study, but still i can say he wont..
no one is perfect, but still i can understand bad habits can be changed..
but still bad habits cant be changed overnight, have to give time.
it really tiring,
you guys trapping me in between, it wont solve anything de..
rather i trapping inside with no air..
and the words i can only say is suffocated!
really, people truly understand me are getting lesser and lesser.
people talk joke with me when i seriously need a listeners.
lols.. try it on others when you really need a listeners..
don entertain me when you really joking me when i seriously need someone there..
things arents so simple as you think.

28 august 2009 Friday

2009-08-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday talk to baby until nearly 12am..
it was very tiring, we don share the same bond anymore, i guess?
what i want to talk to you bout, you don seems to bother much..
sometimes i feel like returning in the past laughing non stop..
though i may laugh now, but seriously the laugh wont last long..
unfortunately, quarrels keep on coming..
Honestly, i lost confidence in this relationship already..
last night, i meant to just have a chat with you..
but what you give me those answer is still got any others to say?
sound like you are in a rush to hung the phone is it?
i feel like treating you the way you treat me.
it will look horrible lf you really want me to do that?
but still i guess there don need to do that..
i hate it man, really..
how i wish there is a patient urgently need blood, i will be the first to donate..
lf were to save a person from a road, i don mind..
i might sound super silly and foolish..
but it really hurt me..
rather than i keep on hurting myself by smoking..
or should i enjoy myself to keep on drinking?
super sianx and bored le..

25 August 2009

2009-08-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

i hate when you keep on saying that you want to go clubbing?
fun is it?
keep on going... having those brother will help you is it?
though i am 18 yrs old, but till i feel that i already thinking somethings le..
but how bout you?
keep on having fun like no one business..
and in the end complain to me that what no money..
hello i not a bank for you to withdraw, beside i still studying alright?
i swerve la even if i started working le, i wont get a single cents from parents le..
and i wont keep on complaining to people that what i no money le..
though i not much money now...
least i know i didnt spent the money on those clubbing things..
though i admit i got smoke.. but least i not addicted to it..
i only smoke when i am stress..
it really piss me off when you keep on telling me..
what you want go clubbing..
wasting your money on those silly things will only make you look like a FOOL!
DUMBASS!hate your attitude lo!
fuck off!

2009-08-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

As usual today company him today..
i realise that i am like a fool actually make the way to yishun..
i call him so many times when he actually didnt want to bother at all..
when i am half way through the mrt, he finally call me..
i didnt throw my temper at him lo, he throw at me first say why call me so many times?
fine... anything just blame on me..
blame on me ba..
anything you do is correct and everything i do is on mistakes..
happy to see like this?
can anybody tell me what should i do?

tired..

20 August 2009

2009-08-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

seem so tired and down on those recently days..
i think you still don seems to understand me well..
comes to problems, you only know how to run..
want me to do things that you want,
but come to mine problems. what you can give is hack care attitude..
last time i take things to serious.
but right now i don, you want to care jiu care ba..
i not giving it a dam..
it sad to say that it very tiring lf one doesnt seems to care for you or helping you..
when you keep on helping..

baby:

last night told you alot of things..
i don know why i am so straightforward to you last night..
i think you are shocked.. sorry baby..
the things were hidden in me..
you asked me why i didnt tell you earlier?
guess that because of your work, i don wish to add on to your burdens.
hope there will be less quarrel..

2009-08-19T21:19:00.001+08:00

16 august 2009

2009-08-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

dead and tired..

just leave me alone..

i want stay alone and emo..

i don need anyone company..

seriously dun nid..

i just want to stay alone alone and ALONE..

LEAVE ME ALONE..

I HATE EVERYONE..

REALLY EVERYONE..

EVERYONE LIE TO ME..

FORGET IT MAN..

I AM TIRED..

I THINKING OF ENDING EVERYTHING..

9 August 2009 Sunday

2009-08-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

Sorry peeps my computer went down..
i was able to update now through my cousin Laptop...
nowdays lots of quarrel.. link me to lost le..
i am afraid of everything.. and you...
what i seems to do, seems nothing perfect to you..
what your friend do to me, i had to cover up everything..
even it like not my fault, i also had to bear everything..
what you can only say is like don care la..
when you wanted something, i did went to the extra mile to help you to get it..
but when i fail to help, you only say wa le eh..
it not that i don want help you..
but sad to say you dun seems to understand me at all.
friends to you seems more perfect, so why in the first time you keep on asking people to introduce when your attitude is like this? it link to disappoint..
you think i not heartpain when my darlings and friends scold you..
but i feel that whatever i say also no use..
whatever i do, also no confidence.
friends keep on asking me cheer up..
maybe like what i say before. i wasnt a good girlfriend ,friend and everything..
things will get better? really or is everything just a dream now for me?
maybe those who are not really close to me and reading my blog now..
may think i am complain queen..
but imagine you are me..and your boyfriend always switch to his phone silent mode..
and when you call him so many times, he don even want to care..
and when he answer the call le, he throw his temper..
of course you will get angry right? you call him so many times.
then in the end he throw his temper..
and comes to problems.. he only can don care la..
it just needed some time to cool down eveything ba..

23 july thrusday

2009-07-23T10:42:00.000+08:00

I piss off larhs..

i wont anyhow scold people necessary unless something really piss me off..

those who are really closed to me will understand my feeling..

Your Act is just being childish.. ue think i am gong is it?

lie to me i still dunoe is it?

just that i blink one eye only lo..

sometimes i really need to find him urgently... i need you help..

lf you dun want to help, then don help lo..

why must ue lie to me again and again?

you liars! i hate liars.. i hate people to lie to me!

when you are bored. you wanted us to call ue..

we did call ue..

but when we are bored, you just give us a hack care attitude..

Fuck ue man..

we dun deserve how ue treat us la hor..

next time anything dun call us..

rest assure when ue call us, we wont answer your call either!

i will mark my words:)

your attutide just simply sux!

i nearly scold ue to hell when you ask his ex out..

you know i will get jealous, and yet you do it!

eh, you do it purpose de or what?

that time did ue understand my feeling?

i dun think ue are lo.. just keep on hurting people and hurting people..

you love to hurt people i will hurt you back like how you hurt me..

i somehow regret to know you..

what i learn from ue.. are lie..

you give me those hack care attitude..

well.. i don think i should bother you at all le..

i hate ue:(

20 july 2009 Monday

2009-07-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

down with fever 37.7

sore throat.

2 days mc

headache..

sianx lo.

16 july 2009 thrusday

2009-07-16T09:04:00.000+08:00

should i let go?

i really dunoe what to do le..

just give me time to change...

Clueless...

Am i the one that change or is you?

????

can anyone answer me?

Heart seems bleeding non stop:(

Crying non stop:(

Emo:(

15 july 2009

2009-07-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

TIRED...

BREATHLESS.

14 July 2009

2009-07-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

i really hate the way ue treat people:(

it just simply piss off..

i nearly scolded ue.

we not your spare typre as when ue like it, ue come and find us..

don like us just simply throw us away.. just image people do this to ue?

12 july 2009

2009-07-13T08:29:00.000+08:00

Today didnt went work..

went to look for baby and his friends..

waited for them to do their hair and off we went to eat breakfast:))

didnt really eat much as something spoilt my mood.

regretted at 3 pm plus as i didnt eat much in the morning..

my stomach was growlin..

wa le.. but heng lo.. we buy alots of food to the cinema..

though we know is illegal lo.. hehe..

watch transformer again..

today went out with baby two friends to..

who i didnt saw before.. the girl look so dao and fierce..

talkin to her like so scary lei..

while watching transformer halfway through...

i ask baby this:

i: baby, you cry uh? ( because one of the robot die while saving sam)

Baby: no la.. where got?

later movie end...

Baby: baby the movie like very touching hor..

i: orh.. that means.. you wanted to cry out de la?

baby: ( he quickly deny lo) no la.. where got?

i: ah ya, see your patterns. still want to act act..

Baby: .....

after watching transformer, headed down to amk to shop..

shop around 8 plus.. home sweet phone:)

darling cheer up:))

guys are like this... haix..

why they love to take advantage?.....

????

8 july 2009

2009-07-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

today lesson was so boring that i fallen asleep straight when i lied down on my desk..

Almost every teachers repeating every single word..

school today start at 8 am and it end at 4 pm..

chatted with baby till midnight last night..

and i saw baby sms at around 3.30 am.

bet he cant fall asleep ba...

darling...my only and one darling..

sorrie lf i sound mushy..hehe..

thanks alot for those up and downs moment..

ue help me alot... though we only know this year..

but we like know each other for long..

whenever i need company, you will always be there for me..

never fail wor:))

when i down. you will always seem be the listener with me..

xie xie nie:))

darlimg no matter what, i always be there for ue de:))

anything just text me or call me..

love you alots darling:))

Tuesday 7 july 09

2009-07-07T07:26:00.000+08:00

yeah i not a good girlfriend.

last time ue are not like this at all de..

but right now, little bit things ue seems so petty and hot temper..

how to tell ue my sorrows my pain?

somemore ue are one of my loves ones to me..

ue always wanted your own way, i respect.. i give in.

but did ue give in and respect how i do things do?

yeah i admit sometimes i am over react to much le.

sorrie about it..

perhaps i shouldnt pin to much hope on it..

i really really tired and sick of it le.

what i do, people just simple don appreciate it.

what for sia?

Monday 6 july 09

2009-07-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

School reopen today..

timetable change totally..

sianx..

perhaps i wasnt a good friend and a stead ba..

is not that i don want to chat with ue..

is i don know what to chat with ue about..

but i guess ue misunderstand me:(

forget it lf ue thinkin i am those type of person..

maybe is our age gap..

i may like a kid to ue.. cus ue are 24 years old.

i may talk the way that i like.

i cant possible don talk right just because ue don like it?

i may be a good entertainer at times..

sometimes i wonder am i laughing or just bleeding inside my heart.

sunday 5 july 09

2009-07-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

tml reopen school sooooooooooooooooooooooooo sianx..

cus it boring boring boring boring boring boring boring

i hate going especially the new time table:( sianx la.

never mind.. i plan to sleep lf lessons are super boring..

hehe.. i know teachers will started nagging at me or

started askin me questions to see i awake not.

ytd baby mum chat with me through phone..

i also thought i am dreaming but it real.

scaring at first..

but a while later find out she is actually alright la..

friendly that what i can describe her..

today went over to aunt house to slack.

fun..

sorrie everybody i just top up my card only..

didnt call you guys or sms.

alright i gonna sleep..

tml got school.. plan to lee siao people..

haha:)) night

saturday 4 july 09

2009-07-04T09:26:00.000+08:00

one of the idoit spoilt my day..

F*** off la..

ue think what ue got stead big deal?

ue think alot of people like ue is it?

what ue can do is only lie and lie..

forget it la hor, next time ue don have friends..

don come cry like a cry baby..

only know how to cry and cry.

have a mummy to support ue.

so what? next time ue also have to independent..

your mummy can support ue forever meh?

i actually thinking of forgive ue of hurting me so much..

but right now i don have this type of thinking anymore.

in fact i hate you more and more.

your face make me feel like vomitting.

don act a big one when ue are not lo..

don come begging anyone in the end cus no one will help ue when ue have this type of attutide..

it just simple irritate people:((

2-july-09 thru

2009-07-02T07:36:00.000+08:00

freak la.. i seriously hate ue to hell:(

i don mean to say all those words..

but ue seriously not doing any good to me la..

what ue can do is only scold scold..

i not your punching bag either la hor..

seriously la hor, ue give birth to me for what de la??

only know how to treat me like this?

ue sux la..

ue think by taking away my phone will bring ue any good?

your actions are lame la..

childish:((

freak la..

i seriously hate to talk to ue now.

Monday 29-june-09

2009-06-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

ytd work from 9am till 11am plus.

as reason being : meeting baby and friends:))

shop around bugis till 4 plus.. then went to amk lan shop..

see them play lo till 7 plus..

then company them eat dinner le walk around amk hub

back home:))

Today meet angeline darling and we went to city hall.

walk around eat mac and walk around again..

back home le..

today kind of sianx lo..

when talking to mummy that time, she doesnt seems understand

sianx la, when we will be okay sianx?

ue think i not heartpain when i see your leg like that meh?

i did tell ue to rest le..

due to your stubborness, ue wont listen lo..

what else i can do siah?

haix. i look like a failure la..

problems just keep on coming..

is not i don wan to go back with ue..

is my parents want to go back also, what should i do?

alot of doubts:((

friday 26 june 2009

2009-06-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

Today was a Loooooooooooooooooooong Day for me:)
meet up with working friends plus darling and ong lai tak and off to interview at city hall.
after that shop around raffles place.
say frankly, the oreo donuts from donuts factory did tempt me la.
but i dunoe why i so stupid that i didnt buy.. wa le:(
haha... never mind la. hehe....
later headed to orchard walk around...
actually wanna meet up baby for lunch de.
but i am late he dabao his lunch le.
so we walk around shop shop.... alot of things did tempt me..
but didnt buy much cus lack alot of $$$..
only bought a dress at 10 bucks. cheap right?
hehe.. i love the dress so much:))
tml going back to work...
i dun think meeting aria they all for ktv le ba?
sing until like so late le..
maybe meeting them on sunday ba:))
i feel like watching transformer again with baby...
it nice.......woohoo~

shall upload photo tml....
so tired:(

Thrusday 24 June 2009

2009-06-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

today was suppose to go out with angeline.

but didnt. Partly because i am suppper suppper tired and i dun have mood to go anywhere temporary.

Tomorrow going back work le. it become a stranger to me.

cus i been long since i didnt go work le.

dunoe how is it le? think i need time:))

seening my grandma cry, my heart really break:(

i do not know speak hokkien but what i can do is give her a hug and offer her a tissue.

You suddenly change into a better person.

it a good sight? i hope it doesnt last 3 min those type lor..

Thanks to all Friends and Sisters for there:)

23 june 2009

2009-06-23T17:28:00.000+08:00

i dun have mood to post anything for the past few days.
sorrie my ah gong just pass away recently:(
ah gong rest in peace:)
now i learn to treasure things le, hope it not to late:)

TO BABY:)
sorrie that i causes so much trouble and hurt to ue.
sometimes i just cannot control my temper, i admit my temper is bad.
what we promise each other i will do it de:))
Perhaps both of us needed more time to understand each other well ba? i guess so...
sorrie that i didnt have mutual trust in ue.
cus the previous relationship really hurt me much:(
sorrie baby, i really changes myself into a better girl:)

sometimes i wondering is it worth it lf i treat someone good when he/ she dun even appreciate it.
i may look hot temper at times. but lf i look hot temper.
there is a reason behind it:)
i use to be mad last time at little bit things which irrtate me or people tend to throw/give me attitude:(
but right now i no longer angry.
lf you choose to throw attitude at me or throw temper at me.
be it. because i wont angry over this type of single little things anymore.
i no longer the petty eng yong or keep on throwing temper at people.
forgive and forget:)
people will change just that it up to them whether they are changing into good way or bad way only.

that all... tired.

Thrusday 18 june 09

2009-06-18T10:41:00.000+08:00

currently just recover from stomach flu only..
feel much better ya.
thanks kimchi for pei wo go see doctor:))

You are one of the good friends whom i choose to share my sorrows and happiness with you.
last time we can used to chat like one hr plus on the phone.
right now, is sad to say that we chat less than 10 min conversations then we just hung:((
talking to you you sound like so frustrated.
yes i admit people do change, but i always have this mindset that is up to people how much they want to change ba? right?
sometimes is not i don want to tell ue, is scare ue are angry ba.
we can company ue when your friends are not around.
when they are around, you just leave us.
though we are mad about your attitude like this, but did we ever blame on you before? no, we didnt.
nowdays i dun really understand what my friends are thinking?
just thinking that we are drifting further and further.

Wednesday 17 june 09

2009-06-17T09:31:00.000+08:00

perhaps we shouldnt depend on each other most of the time.
we should have let go each other sometimes.
this week i cant company ue much.
eating those medicine make me feel like vomitting.
is not that i dun want company ue, is i really feeling so sick and tired.
maybe i not a good girlfriend at all:((
cant do things that ue like.
all i do is make ue angry and angry.
PROBLEMS AND PROBLEMS:((
i not good enough unlike your previous girlfriend.
haix.
i dun have strength to blog anymore. tired.
head so pain:((

TUseday 16 June 09

2009-06-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

today wake up early to company kimchi.
after that, meet ong lai tak at bishan.
sorrie ong lai tak we are late.
sorrie... sorrie... sorrie.
after that went to orchard to shop around:))
as kind of broke, nothing really attracts me. the more i shop the more boring lo.
shop around 4 plus. time to go home.
kimchi went to look for her friends:)) while me and ong lai tak went home.

baby i misses ue so much.
sorrie baby i know that my temper is really bad.
i will change into a better girlfriend:))
i admit i am jealous that your friend keep on calling ue.
but after ue explain to me i feel relieved.
give me time i will be alright de. perhaps things came to sudden.
i dunoe how to handle it.
sometimes i will think so much that i will scare of losing ue.
scary lo.

MY TAGBOX GOT SOME PROBLEM.
I WILL REPLY YOU GUYS THROUGH YOUR BLOG.
SORRIE:))

Monday 15 june 2009

2009-06-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

Today went to aunt house to take care grandma as she not feeling well.
grandma get well soon:))
slack at aunt house till almost 9 plus went home.
missssssssssssses my BABY so much.
baby call me at around 10 plus. chat a while later he have to hung up the call cus he need to do his own things.
while waiting for his call, i fallen asleep.
this happen 4 times already.
i am sorry baby.
i only see baby sms at around 1.30am.
sorry baby. i should had let ue sleep as tml ue have to work.
sorry baby making ue wake up in every 2 hrs time.
sorrie i know i been selfish.
sorrie baby:((

Sunday 15 Jun 09

2009-06-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

Freak la stop all those Things la.
and ue stop calling my stead.
what advantages ue got from my stead?
stop it la. think everybody will like it is it?
company all you want la.
i hate it la.
sms ue ue didnt reply.
everytime tell me busy busy.
wa le. busy still got time talk to her uh?
hate it la:((

Saturday 13 june 09

2009-06-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

went to work from 9am to 6pm with two of my beloved.
hehe.. i am sorrie girl for my bad temper to.
maybe the past few days so many problem.
now we are okay:)
hehe..
baobei don think so much wor.
think of the positive side.:)) don think so much.
anything I"ll be there.
so cheer up:))
baby i miss ue:"))

Friday 12 june 2009

2009-06-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

today went to hougang to meet my darling.
she was dam funny. that why i love her so much~
hehe.. sorrie hor i not a lesbian. just that we are good friends lo. hehe..
chat up with her alot of things.

darlings don think so much:)
try avoid lf possible ba.
anything tell me i be there:))
after meeting darling, went to aunt house and take care nephew and niece.
nephew so cute but when i carry him i want faint le.
because he was so fat. haha.
miss baby so much~
baby wo ai ni:]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KOR KOR:)

Friday 11 june 09

2009-06-12T08:44:00.000+08:00

**** ue larhs.
wth lo, i treat ue like a good friend of mine.
but what your comments to me are just sux. i rather ue save all those comments on your own.
so what lf your temper is bad? which mean you can just anyhow throw your temper at us la?
sorrie la hor we not your punching bag la.
wth lo, ue got problems we help ue.
ya la hor i am like a problematic child.
ue think i like it is it? lf ue dun help me in anything. just shut up your mouth! i will greatly appreaciated lo:]

Thrusday 10 june 2009

2009-06-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

i feeling much better le:]
thanks friends for being there cheering me up.
thanks friends for being my listener without fail.
greatly appreciated:)
Yesterday had a big quarrel with parents that they took away my phone.
didnt really talk to baby much le,due to parents.
sorry baby. My heart feel so empty without talking to ue much.
make ue worried and make yourself drink so much.
baby hope what you promise me things are true.
when i got problem is not i dun wish to tell anyone first it because i dunoe how to express my feelings out.
so i will rather myself be alone and emo.
i dun wish to hurt or making my loves ones sad.
i will tell ue guys when i am ready. so just give me some time.
today actually going out with darling de.
but morning i use house phone to call up baby,
he told me he is sick.
BABY MY HEARTPAIN:(
baby guai guai eat those medicine though it is so bitter i know. tahan a while alright? DRINK MORE WATER REST WELL.
i want HEALTHY BABY:D
i went over and company baby to see doctor.
when the doctor ask baby did ue went to mexico?
i was there laughing.
i know singapore is beware of the H1N1.
but then dont ue think the doctor ask like bit of to straightforward?
after that we went to NORTHPOINT to shop.
there was so big now unlike the 1st time i went there.
think it was really long since i went to northpoint to shop le ba.
bought baby a necklace and myself a shirt.
after that went to amk hub to shop while waiting for darling to pass me her phone.
thanks darling:)
so tired le that we went home.

2009-06-10T07:42:00.000+08:00

At this moment i still cant sleep lo.. so sianx and moody:[
alots of things happen and i feel so extremely pressurized.
perhaps what my mummy say is right.
people understand me are really getting lesser and lesser.
i have no one to turn to, just to able to write out my emotions through blog.
crying days by days doesnt seem to solve anything.
where are ue when i need your company? my mind seems to be in a lalaland.
ue promise me those things is it really promise me or just lying to me again?
thanks darling and sisters company me.
i guess i will be strong and fine ba.
i NEEDED time to heal up my wounds.
thanks for friends being there for me. i greatly appreciated:]
i' am sorrie that i make my loves ones hurt.
i just cant control my emotions.
seening you guys so emotions so sad because of me, i am sorrie.
people tell me before that when ue are sad don ever listen to emo song.
but i dunoe why when i am down the more i feel like listening to emo song.
i feel like sleeping till i cant wake up. then i will not give anyone any problems anymore.

i wish to talk to ue about how i feel.
but when the moment i talk to ue, ue seems hack care.
so the more i guess i shouldnt be bother so much about it since ue already like giving me this type of attutide.
finding ue like hell when ue like to make yourself MIA
Tired le.
when i didnt reply your sms because i am busy.
you will call me why didnt reply my sms.i did reply ue in a friendly tone.
but when you didnt reply my sms because you were busy.
i call you you say why call me for what?
couples cant call each other is it?
is that what ue telling me?
my mind is just full of ???? ba:[

2009-06-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

HEART BLEEDING NOW.
NOTHING SEEMS TO MEND IT NOW:[
ENG YONG SEEMS DEAD.
I HATE LIARS.
I HATE UE!
WHY LIE TO ME? I HATE UE HATE UE HATE UE:[

monday 8 june=D

2009-06-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

thanks darling for helping me to do my blog =D
ue don think so much hor anything can tell me =D
today didnt go out , stay at home the whole day.
was tired that i eat and sleep. wake up eat again. hehe sound like pig right?
hehe.. think really to tired le. sorrie uh darling didnt go out with ue today.
will meet up with you guys soon =)
i need a job ASAP. anyone intro Please? GSS is here yet i only can SEE NO BUY.
sorrie baby i cant find the thing that ue are looking for.
i can understand your feeling.
i want ue happy =D
hope the thing can quickly be FOUND.
baby ai ni=)

tired yet happy

2009-06-08T10:52:00.000+08:00

sorry was busy that i didnt update anything recently.
saturday work until 6pm then daddy fetch me to jumbo restaurant to meet up with my rest of my family and relatives to have dinner there.
dinner until around 10 plus. so tired le. then didnt chat with baby much fallen asleep half way through when sms him.
have a slight conflict wif him. but after that was ok le=D
yesterday work till 12pm off i meet baby.
sorrie baby i was late.
take mrt to orchard shaw house, watch terminator salvation.
it was nice=)
later off to bugis junction. baby went to buy his bag and for his sister as well.
he bought me a necklace=)
thanks baby, ai si ni le=D
later went amk walk walk.
bought baby herbal tea. because he is having cold+ cough.
baby get well soon.
walk walk till around 9 plus then went back home=)

empty+ alone

2009-06-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday didnt update cus mong swing ba. sorrie
and so tired lo that i fallen asleep in the train when we are going back.
went to interview wif angeline and lee yen.
the interviewer was friendly. he say he will look out of any jobs that is available for us. hope got good news from him=D
after that of course is shopping.. hehe saw alot of things to buy but lack of something which is money.
back home around 7.
started surfin net.
was talking to my friends from 9 plus to 10 plus till i chat with baby.
thanks friends for being there for me.
baby seems so weird nowdays.
am i thinking much again or the worst is coming?
hope not ba.
sleeping soon. tml still got work.

2009-06-03T21:08:00.000+08:00

today went interview with kimchi=)
went to take the lift but was unable to reach 12 floor.
call up the person but totally don understand what she say,
heng uh thank god someone press 12 floor then we manage to reach.
he press can reach but we press like hell was like unable to reach.
interview turn out to be failure=(
nevermind least we did try out.
i didnt manage to get it to the f1 job just because i argue with the teacher.
dunoe what she tell my advisor lor.
forget it lor..blame on my stupidness.
baby nowdays seem so busy.
he looks so stress.
heartpain siah baby=(
i think i am like a failure lo only know how to spend his money.
darling cheer up.
ue don think so much=D
sorrie for making ue so worrie and sad.
smile=)
tml going interview wif kimchi.
wish me good luck!hehe..